Last call.

This break from school has been wonderful and awful and magical and hellish and too long and much too long. It’s been bartering for bedtimes and rooms that need cleaning and the laundry, dear God, the laundry.

It’s been shoes that are too big and footed pajamas stretched by toes that are growing too quickly.

It’s been home cooked meals and frozen waffles at 9:30 p.m. after effort is sorta-kinda valiantly sought after and never found. I suspect it is with the missing socks.

It’s been the noise of a messy family and then silence and no in between.

It’s been vodka. Thank you, vodka.

It’s been pajamas and mom showering at 6:30 p.m….maybe. Maybe tomorrow.

It’s been holding new babies and then waffling between joy and sadness. It’s been passing the baton.

It’s been yelling and hugging and looking for a peaceful room to be alone with my thoughts and finding the room and it becoming too quiet for comfort.

It’s been reading books and watching far too much T.V. and the cookies, dear God, the cookies.

It’s been, “Yes!” and “NO!” and “HURRY UP!” and, “Let’s enjoy this moment!” and busy and stagnate and everything in between.

It’s been time standing still and clocks never moving and whoa, look at that it’s almost over.

It’s been happy and sad and reflective and selfish and lovely and ugly and I can’t say I loved every minute of it. But, I can’t say I didn’t.

It’s been complicated. It usually is.

It’s been spotless, decorated living rooms and toilets with urine. Everywhere.

It’s been coordinating dishes and paper plates and “just ONE more, marshmallow!” and “My GOD, IF YOU WERE HUNGRY, YOU’D EAT AN APPLE!”

It’s been fun and extremely boring and snowball fights while I barely supervise by the back door with, “just one more cup of coffee.”. That was 5 cups ago.

It’s been lighthearted and deep discussions about those we’ve lost and those still with us.

It’s been friends and finding gracious ways to forgive those who have sinned against us.

It’s been life. Wonderful, horrid, amazing life. Goodbye 2013.


  1. Andrea Miller says:

    Beautifully. Perfectly. Truthfully. Written. You nailed it for me! And definitely thank goodness for the vodka!! Wishing you and your family a safe, healthy, happy, vodka filled 2014.

    • Thank you, Andrea. Same to you and yours. I raise my glass of vodka to your health (in a very ladylike way and at an appropriate time of day as to not offend).

  2. It’s been all of this, and more. And less. Once again, you’ve said it perfectly, my friend. My New Year’s resolution is to find a way in 2014, highs and lows of real life be damned, to hug my in-the-computer-but-very-real-to-me blog wife BPM. And maybe carry you around in my pocket for a little while. I know you don’t mind the lint and my kids’ discarded gum wrappers. xoxo to you big time, B.

  3. Once again…thank you for your beautiful validation of MY LIFE. Your truth lets me live in mine!

  4. IF YOU WERE HUNGRY, YOU’D EAT AN APPLE! << I screamed those exact words at some point this holiday!

  5. I hope that 2014 is much, much, much less tumultuous for you and yours! It will be full of fun, laughter, and love, because you bring that into any room you walk into.

  6. That’s exactly how it’s been!

  7. Yes ma’am. All of this. A glass raised to you as well.

  8. Wow. This has been vacation in my house, and we’ve only just reached the halfway mark. As miserable as ive been (raging tooth infection thats spread to my tonsils, ear, and sinuses) its also been the most amazingly wonderful time with my kids.

    Love this. Sharing on the Facebook!

  9. Brian Boerman says:

    Thank you!!!

  10. Love this, so perfectly said as always and I’m getting a little choked up as I think about the fact that 2013 was the year of our friendship and I’m not even sure how to put into words what it means to me. So much love to you, I can’t wait for 2014 to be the year of finally squeezing you in person.

  11. Yes. So perfect. As always.

    I’m ready for 2014! xoxo

  12. I can’t believe that I have not come across your blog before now, but I am so glad I just did. You are my hero.

  13. Perfect, including the Vodka and the large amount of cookies…

  14. All I can say is that I love you. Beautiful words as always. xoxo

  15. Wouldn’t trade it for anything! <3 Thanks for making us all feel normal!

  16. So happy to have found your FB page and now the blog 🙂
    You say it how it is, no sugar coating. I don’t think I said anything about eating an apple, but I know I told my 11 year old a few times to go make a sandwich ; half hour after I serve dinner , he eats 3 bites and says he’s full. Lmao

  17. Amen to love and life and family- all of it – the good the bad the ugly the clothes don’t fit anymore except the ones with holes and stains! I have said the EXACT same thing – “…if you were REALLY hungry you would eat (this)!!”

  18. That was fun! Thank you! Here’s to another year in the life…

  19. This was one of the most amazing and honest (and hilarious) things I have ever read! And oh so true!
    Thank you for so eloquently honest!

  20. Andi Cazemayor says:

    I have Just recently discovered your fb page and blog.
    so glad I did,mâles me realize That I am not alone! Cheers!!

  21. Yowza. Just perfect. Love you. Love your words. Happy 2014!

  22. It really was, wasn’t it? Happy 2014, friend. Cheers!

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